I hope

   I never that sort of relationship I have always wanted. The sort of close friend, like a sister, where I can tell everything to her. All I ever wanted is for her to understand me. Sometimes, you think you are always right. Have you ever taught about my feelings or what I really want? I feel you care more about those niece and nephew more than you do towards me. Each time I tell you something, before I could finish the story, you have made Ur own assumptions. Sometimes all I need is just a hug , and lots of love. Sometimes I make mistakes yes I do , and I get irritated fast, but you never seems to understand . I would be closer to my friends of course. Because they understands me more. I can tell them anything. I wish you are theming I can express everything too. Is it so hard to understand me. And do you have to be so harsh all the time. I hate all this revenge and hatred and all this bloody family dramas. I don't wanna grow up hating people or thinking too much. All that matter to me is a real family. It's so hurting, at one point when someone you cherish so much fails to put in effort to und you. I grow so much scared that I hardly help the old one. Because of the mouth. Now the relationship between me and the old one has been shaky.