Miss You

3rd day since i torture myself not to text you. 8 days since we broke up. 192 hours since I missed you.

It's just so hard to be here thinking why & why. Moonu is up tonight. & Gosh seeing the name Moonu itself makes me want to break down :(

It's really hard to go through this. I'm trying my best to be happy but you just keep running into my mind.

It's really hard to forget all this shits & Idk.

Ilovethepain

It's good to know that happiness are just bullshit. So is happy ending. What's the point of living when you know you are about to loose your life? :/ I am like n a puzzle. You love me or not :/ It's freaking my head out. Idk what have I done till I don't deserve a shit in life.

Was it nice the feeling? :) Seeing me hurt! Seeing me crying every night! And you're having fun up and down ? :) When I ask, you will say 'you don't deserve me. It's better we break u & blablabal' Then what's the point I'm being sincere to you for months? Being honest to you. Giving you my whole heart. Perhaps to some idiots, it's very easy to replace him. HAHA Well you're one of the idiots. If you had understand what love really means, there's no way you could find replacement even thought of replacement. 

I just hate you for everything but bullhit of me for still loving you.

This pain is really enjoyable! i mean it's funny and interesting! How he can go on acting like love me but... You'll understand when karma taps you ass :)

When your heart gets broken!

What are words if you really don't mean them when you say them :/ Standing right beside her when she need me most :'( Baby, I miss you daa :'( This dead-alive relationship is killing me daa :'( It just doesn't feel the same anymore. It feel like we are two different strangers :( What is wrong bie? :( Is it me? I am sorry :( I really have tried to be perfect for you but I just fail to do so :'( I really want you back :'( I am going crazy w/o you everyday :'( It hurts so much :'( What have I done till  deserve all this? :'( Why are you avoiding me? Why daa :'( 3 weeks you are making me in a weak state :'( I barely know myself :'( The happier me :'( Today i am just a shit who cries every minute :'( It's not fair for you to go  and have fun but leaving me dead :'( I cannot take this anymore :'( I wish I had never born :/ It's a fucking feeling :'( To see you going away from me slowly :'( Each time you say you need time it the same as you are leaving me slowly :'( I can't go tru all this alone daa :'( I cannot. It kills me :/ All I could do is blame God :/ Why must HE take you away from me :'( False hopes & all :'( It hurts deeply :/ Fuck my life :'( Why can't HE give me a happy life? :'( Don't I deserve to be happy too at least once in life? I give up in life :'( I really do :'(