I need a break

    I really need  a whole of fresh new air. I can't wait to go to university. I can't wait to leave home, leave all the pain behind. I  wanna runaway to a place where love is unconditional. I am dying inside. The pain and words and curse. I feel like an unwanted child. I feel jealous looking at my cousins. They seems to get more love, attention and care from her. I wanna just take a few pills and die. It feels so pain deep down. All those harsh words. I told God, I never gonna believe in him anymore. I lost every single faith. At time like this, where is He? Didn't he hear my prayers. I felt like someone is chocking my throat. It felt like thousands of swords just pierced into the heart. Everything is just so dead to me. I feel so lifeless. I just wanna runaway from here. To somewhere I belong.