A note for you.

Hye? I wanna tell so much things, but I just don't know where to begin, how to begin & all. As much as you are fed-up of me, I'm fed-up of crying everyday. As much as you're having fun now, I also want to have fun. I know I've done mistakes & lately was so into my problems. I'm sorry. I just couldn't be perfect. I am trying every now and then. It's so clueless. It's so hard to face the fact you've dumped me & do what you did. Sometimes the ignorance you gave hurts more. It's hurts when you say your love faded away. I'm sorry. I didn't try my best to be the best for you. Sometimes, I just don't get it, why I'm not over the blues. I realized that you're no longer mine. There won't be a second chance & that you're gone forever. But the memories, keep hunting. I just couldn't forget every single words you say to me, how we joke around till late nights & the stupid arguments. You changed so did I. I accepted the fact you're the new you. I adapted to it. Sometimes, I hurt you by my words & you hurt me by actions. I'm sorry. I know, I sound stupid, desperate and all, but yeah, I truly love you & that's why I am being so. It's not easy to just sweep in with any other guys. I'm still changing & hoping for miracle. I couldn't care less anymore, because I honestly love you. The worst feeling in the world is when you can’t love anyone else, because your heart still belongs to the one who broke it.  

Will there be another chance? To get things right? Will there still be hope? :C Will there still be love in you? I'll wait.

Miss You

3rd day since i torture myself not to text you. 8 days since we broke up. 192 hours since I missed you.

It's just so hard to be here thinking why & why. Moonu is up tonight. & Gosh seeing the name Moonu itself makes me want to break down :(

It's really hard to go through this. I'm trying my best to be happy but you just keep running into my mind.

It's really hard to forget all this shits & Idk.

Ilovethepain

It's good to know that happiness are just bullshit. So is happy ending. What's the point of living when you know you are about to loose your life? :/ I am like n a puzzle. You love me or not :/ It's freaking my head out. Idk what have I done till I don't deserve a shit in life.

Was it nice the feeling? :) Seeing me hurt! Seeing me crying every night! And you're having fun up and down ? :) When I ask, you will say 'you don't deserve me. It's better we break u & blablabal' Then what's the point I'm being sincere to you for months? Being honest to you. Giving you my whole heart. Perhaps to some idiots, it's very easy to replace him. HAHA Well you're one of the idiots. If you had understand what love really means, there's no way you could find replacement even thought of replacement. 

I just hate you for everything but bullhit of me for still loving you.

This pain is really enjoyable! i mean it's funny and interesting! How he can go on acting like love me but... You'll understand when karma taps you ass :)

When your heart gets broken!

What are words if you really don't mean them when you say them :/ Standing right beside her when she need me most :'( Baby, I miss you daa :'( This dead-alive relationship is killing me daa :'( It just doesn't feel the same anymore. It feel like we are two different strangers :( What is wrong bie? :( Is it me? I am sorry :( I really have tried to be perfect for you but I just fail to do so :'( I really want you back :'( I am going crazy w/o you everyday :'( It hurts so much :'( What have I done till  deserve all this? :'( Why are you avoiding me? Why daa :'( 3 weeks you are making me in a weak state :'( I barely know myself :'( The happier me :'( Today i am just a shit who cries every minute :'( It's not fair for you to go  and have fun but leaving me dead :'( I cannot take this anymore :'( I wish I had never born :/ It's a fucking feeling :'( To see you going away from me slowly :'( Each time you say you need time it the same as you are leaving me slowly :'( I can't go tru all this alone daa :'( I cannot. It kills me :/ All I could do is blame God :/ Why must HE take you away from me :'( False hopes & all :'( It hurts deeply :/ Fuck my life :'( Why can't HE give me a happy life? :'( Don't I deserve to be happy too at least once in life? I give up in life :'( I really do :'(

Nothing Last Forever.

Even the prettiest flower will die one day. It is nature's way of teaching us that nothing lasts forever.

Things changes, I change the most. 

Don't worry about me or what I do. This is my life not yours.

I know how paranoid I get when you go 'there'. I know I fail to understand you. I don't want to argue. But don't you think I won't miss you when you never text me the whole day? A text like, 'hye I am doing great & imy' would have make me feel secure & happy. 

I don't know you anymore. I miss the old us.

I remember when I used to count your kisses, now I count the days since we last talked.

I hate to be left alone by you. That feeling sucks. I know you are busy & friends & family comes first. Got it & will deal with it.

Each time I do so, I never get a reply, I feel like I am disturbing all your fun & yes I did. Sorry.

This is what I have to go through this few days. Sometimes, I wish we were just friends. So that I wouldn't miss you much.

You don't love me. You only know me, when you need me.

Sometimes I felt this way. You only need me when you need me. I don't know me anymore.

 I wanna talk to you so bad, but I hate feeling like I bug you.

At times i do this. I am afraid you wouldn't like if your friends sees it.

I do that all the time to you right? Pissing you off all the time.

'Ok?' That's what I used to reply when I am moody? :)

But you never understand my 'Ok' :)

A simple hello can lead to so many things.

Forgive? Yes. Forget? No.

Second chances don't matter any more cause people never change

I would still be the same. Sorry.