Welcome to MY LIFE!

This Is My Life, Mr freaking bad life! My freaking stupid life!





Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on, turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like, to be like me

To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked, when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
Well deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me



To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
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To be kicked, when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lies straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay

Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life





Uhh, my life is complicated! I am angry, hurt, annoyed, depressed, tension-up! hell! life AIN'T EASY! people around me does nothing bout makes me more angry! Am hating my life right now! Am really angry! I feel like breaking down! Everything I does doesn't seem to turn out good! Everything seems to be Black! I am sorry, I caused trouble. I am sorry If i was too straight! I really can't take the pressure! 


 


Nobody could be trusted. I guess the song above is my  theme song. Thanks Arvind for being there for me. Thanks Taiyeba for cooling me down (:  I don't know who else to tell. Thanks aashwiny for supporting me! It's hard to express ur anger! I felt like a grenade! I was really boom up just now!





I am lost. I am so tempered! I just had to release my anger! It feels so good during Bio class. We crack jokes together! then, my angers flew away. I was only trying to be LOGICAL! Hmmm.

 


Fair Is FOUL, Foul Is FAIR. There's nothing more true than Shakespeare's Macbeth quote! Thanks Literature for teaching me sense of humanity!  

Lengkapi Diriku Sayangku

Janganlah kau tinggalkan diriku
Takkan mampu menghadapi semua
Hanya bersamamu ku akan bisa
Kau adalah darahku
Kau adalah jantungku
Kau adalah hidupku
Lengkapi diriku
Oh sayangku, kau begitu
Sempurna... 







Tengah romantic ni (: Hari ini mood bad. Marah, sedih, geram, benci! Sayang, thanks sebab buat hari aku (: Kau begitu sempurna! Aku cintai mu sayang! Sayang, kamu lah lelaki yang terhebat dan aku mencintaimu begitu banyak! tAK BISA KU BAYANGKAN HIDUP TANPAMU! Kau milikku sentiasa (:


I'll never get any PERFECT guy as you are (: Thanks bubu!

(: Love!

Seriously! I am depress! I been going around the school telling people 'I want to stop schooling and get married'/ My bottle became my baby today! Seriously am so sick of books! *Yuck* And Moral class was always a class of laughter though jokes weren't told! Those jokes are between me and jasween! Hahahx! 

at 12.55 am in the morning, I call almost 10 people telling a stupid joke which I THINK WAS FUNNY! Nobody laugh =| Except August! I like him now! :D At school, I met zana! I always seem to forgot her bottle! the truth is I LOST HER BOTTLE! =.=! Dahla blog pasal sekolah not fun! Depression only!

=.=!!!

Let's Blog about my MIMO (:

Mimo, my black and white rabbit (: Mimo flew all the way from New Zealand and landed on my house! :D Whoots!

Pratically, Mimo is a sick ass! He loves to URINE ON ME! or MY BED! Seriously, he gets me really annoyed! My bloody smart brother when and hair-dried it yesterday after we bath him! -.- Mimo got stressed up and lay down like a dead frog! =.= Stupid donkey! I slap him then he knows! mimo breath was like really slow. I thought he was gonna die soon! I almost cried! Thank god, Dr.Shan saved him! Stupid THENESH!

Then we bought Mimo a new friend, GF actually! Tetapi, that MIMI turn out to be a MALE! I can't pratically make Mimo a GAY rabbit! ><!

Mimoand Mimi- THE GAYS!

When Mimo gets into the car, he loves to cuddle into the bottle compartment!

Mimo loves to eat on two feets (:

Bam-Bam, The English Angora (: I freaking love it! I am gonna name it Bam-Bam once I forcemy dad to buy him! I just love the GREY (:

I am sorry two this two particular guy! I am sorry I hurt you!

This song is meant for two particular guys!

I'm so glad you made time to see me

How's life, tell me how's your family

I haven't seen them in a while

You've been good, busier than ever

We small talk, work and the weather

Your guard is up and I know why

'Cause the last time you saw me

Still burned in the back of your mind

You gave me roses and I left them there to die

So this is me swallowing my pride,

Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night

And I'd go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you

Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I'd go back to December, turn around and make it alright

I go back to December all the time

These days I haven't been sleeping

Staying up playing back myself leaving

When your birthday passed and I didn't call

And I think about summer, all the beautiful times

I watched you laughing from the passenger side and

Realized I loved you in the fall

And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind

You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye

So this is me swallowing my pride,

Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night

And I'd go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you

Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind

I go back to December all the time

I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right

And how you held me in your arms that September night,

The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking

Probably mindless dreaming

If we loved again I swear I'd love you right

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't

So if the chain is on your door, I understand

But this is me swallowing my pride,

Standing in front of you saying I'm sorry for that night

And I'd go back to December

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you

Wishing that I'd realized what I had when you were mine and

I go back to December, turn around and make it alright and

I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind and

I go back to December all the time

To this particular guy(s), I dunno how to tell this, but SORRY. 

I hurt you many times! Yeah, am sorry! Am sorry you say I cheated! I am sorry I hurt you! This particular blog is meant for two guys, who was deeply in love with me.

To Mr.A, am sorry I wasn't honest about myself. I am sorry after 3 years am apologizing. I never meant to hurt you! I wasn't daring enough! Thanks for that love you gave me! It was beautiful! Perfect! Sometimes, I wish I could rewind and never make that mistakes again! But, you are taken and I am too! I really wish you would forgive me, I was a jerk! Stupid! I felt one kind, guilt for not saying sorry to you! Each time I saw you at temple I wish I didn't knew you! 

TO MY ONCE UPON A TIME...

To Mr.B, I am sorry I hurt you the most! I was easily brain-washed! I was stupid to hear ,my friends story! I am sorry my words hurt you! You gave me love and all I gave you was a GOODBYE! 

I knew I was harsh, I didn't talk good care of you! I admit I was once jelex when you get along with D_ _ _. So I went and hook up with Jaayasielan (I'm not sure bout this cow's name spelling) that ass who I never loved! I love reading you sms. Those sweet sms I would write down in my diary all the time!  I don't know that I love you much till I left you! I am sorry I broke up on a new year! I am sorry I never appreciate you!  I am sorry I never trust you! I am sorry I lied to you about my dad never agreed about our love because of ur religion. I am sorry, I really hurt you much!

When Boredom Strikes!

Blogging all the way from a party! Seriously, am dead bored over here and yeah! Laptop always come in handy! Wow, poor hawt mama yosika! Smashed her face with chocolate cake! Now that's bad! :D And now Jasween is telling a story! Let me type out! :p Arab people are rich! And there way their clothes like some Halloween costumes! Hahahx that's cute! And Taiyeba was giving her own philosophy about their clothings! :p LolxD! Jas was buying some perfume, and she saw a girl who was desperate for some branded perfume. And she saw a cute guy, so cute with name sha...! Gaps! Ah, asal I kepoh? :p Hahahx, whatever it is! We are stuck in Tingting's room! (: Chilling cold! :D And to Arvind, I miss eu!