FROZEN

     

   After a whole tiring day with the kids, we went to AEON JUSCO, GSC for a movie. We wanted to catch Carrie, or perhaps The Hunger Game, but sadly those movie are not available at that time. Last choice FROZEN, and I swear, I did not even regret a single bit.

  It's opening is so adorable. How the sisters played with magical snow which, Elsa (the blondie) has. Somehow, she struck her magic on her sister's head, and poof, she shut herself from the world till her parents passed away.

   

  Anna,she is crazy but so adorable. Sort of happy-go-lucky. She made her sister angry over her 'engagement' and poof her sister anger made the whole Andrella into ice cold winter.

Anna ran into the Snow Mountain, and I really love this scene. She build her very own snow castle, and gosh it's magnificent!Then she transform her dress into something so elegant, God knows, she is smoking hot. I was like you know, in love withe her.

 

  And then it's all bla bla bla bla xD HAHA, but what I really love about this movie is OLAFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF

OLAF is just so adorable to the max. He is the stupidest snow man I ever knew. HAHA, imagine, Olaf dream of having summer and he loves summer. He never knew he would melt in it. And when he had his summer, he started to melt and Elsa gave him his own snow cloud. But Olaf is really amusing, he make me laugh my ass out. He is OMG xD

  The songs in this cartoon is very good and nice <3 Still stuck in my head!!!

  But what makes this movie so special is that, it defines TRUE LOVE differently. Yes to most of us, true love and true love kiss is the greatest magical thing in the world. But in Frozen, true is beyond that. Love for your family, your sister that is true love. And this is like a wake up call for me. Yes, my true love is my family. That's the most beautiful love I ever knew. And thank you God for that (: 

  

A true lost to the world.

             I was googling some news and I was so shocked to learn that the great leader, Nelson Rolihlahla Mandela,has passed away yesterday. This is something really sad. I wasn't really a great big fan of him, honestly, but I've always loved to hear his quotes and read about him. I have his Biography book and each and every line he says in the book has a great meaning that he wants the world to acknowledge.

                                             

         What really inspired me about him is that, how he fought for his country's freedom. He has been into the prison in and out for years and worst of all isolated to Robben Island, prison. 

                                                         

       But once he was freed, the prison warden asked him, 'Sir, what is your utmost desire?', he says, 'I want to meet people'. He proves to us, that no man is an island and he needs his people to fight for what is right. He was a man of no fear. 

                                     

        This quotes is so strong and deep. It's true, education is indeed the key for freedom. Freedom to a world where critical thinking are applied. A soldier need his weapons to protect us from harm. A cook need his cooking utensils to feed us. A mother needs a lot of patience and love to go through each obstacles. A writer needs his pen to share his knowledge and each human race needs education to shape the world into a better place. Indeed, without the weapon, nothing can be changed! Have you ever imagine a world without education? Back to the black days? Where people are more of barbaric in a sense that, girls are considered bad luck, guys dominate the world &etc. It's creepy as it seems. 

                                                    

   

                                                  

            This is my favorite quote of all time. Each time I'm done because I know how much 'some' people hate me for no reasons, I will always read this quote over and over again. It somehow give a rise in my weak spirit. I will think positive. If 'she' can hate me, she can learn to love me too. It also gave me the will to face her. Sometimes, when a person hates you, it's just so obvious in their facial expression, but somehow, thanks to this quote, I learn how to face her. And I'm happy (: 

               It's truly a great loss. He is a good leader that has  shared thoughts that are true and compassionate. #RIPNELSONMANDELA. 

Charlie Chaplin final speech in The Great Dictator

          Listen to this speech and think back how hatred has conjured us, each and every man. How machines has rule our lives. How we enslave ourselves to the dead. We are no longer as united as we are, we are weaker. Those bonds are breaking up due to hatred and machines, human shall unite work together, learn to love and build a world we want our  next generations to live in. We don't want a world that we have to live in fear due to our own destruction. Man can create, man can destroy too. Let peace and love circles the world let peace be with us, let race prejudice dies as we all unite to be 1. We belong to the same planet, the human race shall live irrespective of creed, colour, religion & believes. Because, NO MAN IS AN ISLAND. Everyone is born to love and care. Stop cruelty, fight for freedom. Freedom to love & care. 

Arogance

     

              ARROGANT

 ARROGANCE

     

 SELF-PRIDE

 

  SELF-PRAISE

     Good Morning. It's been ages since I brush up my blog. LOL, thank God, school is over, I'm free. Today morning, it was a chilly morning, mum was doing her gardening, I was literally jogging & bro was playing his ball & ironically we came up with a topic that caught my attention. ARROGANCE. Yes,  a human nature that can either bring goods or "slow death"

“Arrogance is a creature. It does not have senses.

It has only a sharp tongue and the pointing finger.” 

― Toba Beta

   It's obviously fine, to be  arrogant of good use. We have great leaders who are arrogant in defending our pride but yet to a certain limit. Sticking your nose high up gain nothing but critical comments that will tarnish our name. 

         OH LOL, I know a few people who are so stuck up & arrogant that they actually look silly in reality. Come on, remove that hideous mask. It ain't make you beautiful. If you decide to argue with a person, MAKE FULL USE of your tiny brain in your cerebral. Don't waste God's gift. It's silly how arrogant people argue praising themselves without knowing the DAMN TRUTH about themselves. Funny eyh? It's fine to loose sometimes, you can't be winning all the time. Life is a circle, what goes up, must come down!

           

            Sometimes, when we are at our loose end, we usually blame our fate or luck or most probably someone we love. I do that, used too. Till I learn to see my own mistakes. That shows how arrogant we are in reality.There's always arrogance in us making us attacking the weaker inner-self of us.

           We decide our own fate. To be arrogant isn't something to be proud of. Honestly, speaking I was arrogant once when it comes to love, I didn't want to give in at all. So it ended up rather tragic, worst than I could imagine. I always wanted to win, but hye, I learnt my lesson. Today, I am happier, rather independent, and I feel everyday is beautiful. HEHE, I don't complain much about anything anymore, I just live by peace. And honestly, 

for being arrogant because I found what I want in life today. Good family, loving friends, happy live. What else do I need. See, that tragic end, was like a bad shit that got away. Isn't that great? The feeling of waking up every morning knowing that there are people who love you. My God, it's so beautiful. I'm glad I got arrogant, got down, today I'm up, happy & blessed. Thank you. That's the spirit! go go girl power! Be afraid of no mistakes!Oh did I mention, that's the good side of being arrogant! LOL. 

This is for you.

   I am not gonna care if you're gonna get angry looking at this. Am not gonna insult you or what. Thank you so much for putting me through all this. Leaving me helpless when you know I needed you the most. Breaking every single promises you gave me. No, it's not entirely your fault. It was mine too but I am glad I did not turn to another person when I was with you. Because I just know it would hurt you, maybe not? I don't know. Each time you tell me, it's your fault, 'I will face it like a man'. I don't know how manly you were. A man solves it, not run away from it. No matter how positive I try to be, I end up falling back but, I am glad I am able to stand up again. It's funny how, people you say you miss me when you don't feel the love anymore. Calling me with all those names that you were not suppose to call. I am not angry with you, but me. It's so hard to watch good romantic movie, go and sit at Tanjung. It brings back all sorts of memories. Here you junks are up beside my bed. I've deleted your number, kept you aside but reality is reality, I gotta face it alone. I am not gonna go around spread things bout you, cause I am not gonna gain a shit by doing so. Revenge is never gonna solve things.  Sooner or later, hopefully I will forget you eventually. Thanks for everything. All the best. 

An unexpected journey of life :)

  No, no I am not old enough to talk about life, but young enough to tell what I have gone through & how positively I made those bitter days into a beginning of my whole new life :) This is the ugly truth that most of us may have gone through or maybe not?

  'Keep the school torch burning, Through the days of learning, One in spirit One in heart in the CONVENT school'. Every day of my whole 11 years in Convent Muar, I sang my school song every Monday. Convent, Muar have been my Alma matter, my second home :) Dad use to bring me there since I was a little girl & till yesterday I last step into my school compound.

   There was just a flash of memories. It wasn't a good one, but the other way round. Yes I remember creating havoc, fun days with my 4 best friends :) Being famous among the teachers & workers as anak 'Cikgu Anba'. Nah, that really didn't really make me proud although it was a supreme feeling knowing your dad had done much to the school & everyone knows him as the Best Teacher or a teacher who had touch many life :) It was pressuring because I have to bring my father's name, so there I was as innocent as a lamb. Trying very hard to score so well in exam just because I am 'Mr.Anba's daugter' :) It was a tough job but it did brought me up into an unexpected journey of school life :)

   I was just 'a good' girl to every teacher until I entered Interact during 2010. :) No, no, I never had any discipline problem or got any demerit. Well, racism overrules here. Racism doesn't only mean as in race but as in student's mentality too. I guess this is a normal trend in every school. Like it or not, this is the real life of school.

   Back to my story, my Koko teacher was fine with me till I got involved in Installation Day. Well she do hate Interactors especially those who are so into the club, like me. You see, I was the secretory for the Installation day. So it was my job to get the principle to approve our activity. So instead of going through the Koko teacher, I went and convince the principle to allow us to have the installation. Well I don't think is wrong :) It was the right thing. My Koko teacher of course was angry because she couldn't stop us from carrying out the Installation.

    So, the whole racism battle begins here. I was elected as the President of Interact Club of Convent, Muar. But of course the teacher didn't like it because she hated me. To be honest, most school teacher don't pick student out of their ability but FAVORITISM. So she instructed my seniors & my club teacher to give me the lowest position in the club and put two of her followers as the president & vice. But somehow rather our seniors went against her & fought for me and I ended up being the Vice :)

   After all that teachers begin to make up stories about me. That's when my dad went & question every single teacher. And guess what? they blame each other :) Dramatic I guess? I was elected as temporary Assistant Head Prefect 2 and then 1 and for 4 months. But some teachers never liked me, so this is what she did, talk about me in the meeting saying 'I can't' and they place me to be a dumb Exco Sebaran Am.

   I told the teacher I want to resign & the convince me telling that the post I was given as was a very important job in the whole prefect-orial board as I am the one who will collect money and type all sorts of letters. Well, I wasn't dumb of course. I told her back this 'If I was suppose to collect money & write official letters, then what is the point of having a Treasurer or a Secretory? I know my job is only to buy cake every month & I guess you should bubarkan this post' & of course my teacher never manage to answer me back and to my surprise the post 'Exco Sebaran Am' was demolished right after I left school. LOL.

   So life goes on, I never bertugas, well it didn't matter. Why should I be the donkey. Life goes on, nobody ever scolded me for being a lazy prefect. When I did so hard what did I get in return? A cake buyer? So I bought secret recipe once a while just to poke my teacher. It was bad of course but well, we payed RM10 for the cake okay?

    In prefect meeting, teachers & other AJK talk bad about me & made up stories about me having 'masalah keluarga'. So, some AJK came and told me because they know I was never at fault. They next day I confront the teacher. AAhhh, the teacher denied and she blame the assistant head prefect who said it. Then my the discipline teacher, a ustazah told me, 'awak dah lama jadi pengawasdan tak pernah ada record buruk kenapa sekarang nak cari masalah?' I laughed and asked her back, 'dari form 1 sampai form 5 saya pengawas. Kenapa sekrang baru nak beri saya masalah'. Guess what, the teacher couldn't answer me back.

   They sabotage me from everything, making my life miserable. I was hated by many teacher for no reason. the teacher who was so good to me never look to me after that. So they made me hated them. I remember going home every night and day crying because I had to go tru all this. Imagine you can't study because of the damage & pressure they gave till this song became my school life lyrics 'WELCOME TO MY LIFE'. It was really depressing, being hated for no reason. Being kicked out of English fest just because you hate me. But it's funny how after every damage these people can still can call me, or my dad for help. -.-

   Being the edge of breaking down brought me down a lot especially in my education. But this did not stop me. Form 6 changed me :) Within 2 weeks of enrolling into High School Muar, I was called to enter Bahas Ala Parlimen  (debate) for state level. Without any much practice and all, I went for the competition, little did I know, we won till the final & the best thing of all this negativity is I was named as the 'BEST DEBATER" for twice in a row :) That day I became an instant star.  An Indian girl who never experienced all this became the best debater. It was really a proud moment especially when the principle came to me and congrats me. At first I didn't want to enter debate but mum & dad told me, 'You should enter & win. Prove to Convent teachers you can be the best' :) & I did.

   Today I won the Public Speaking competition without any practice & mum proudly told Convent principle & English head panel 'Not only my sons are good in public speaking but my daughter was also the champion for her school'. And that did shut their close mentality up.

   Please, you guys are teachers. You shouldn't be racist in every aspect towards a student. Just because one teacher didn't like me, doesn't mean you  guys should indulge yourself into gossips. You may never know how the student would feel unless your kids have to go through all this. Teachers are suppose to help the students & not to be RACIST in every way. You guys are the reason many students are rebellious & hated each other because you taught them what is FAVORITISM, what is the impact of not being in the first class. Please stop all this. 


   

Excitement overload.

Finally, we're going to practice our BollyBhangara dance tomorrow. It's a major surprise for my BIG BABY; patti's 80* birthday party :) My grandma has given me more than I want, molding me into who I am today. So I decided to dance to surprise her.

She better love it, HAHA I know she hates Bollywood because my Hindi is improving & TAMIL, it stays very bad. She is going to be annoyed but I am gonna make her say BOLLYWOOD is cool :D HEEEE <3

My costume is otw :) & I am excited. 

Oh yes I can

  Oh yes I can. :) A simply motto yet it comes with a strong meaning & impact of course. Yes, back then I was always emo & emo & emo. Oh crap, but come to think about it, all those tears I wasted, all those hours & tissues I wasted, Oh God, the tissue company did earn much from me, and poor trees got cut to manufacture more & more tissues. Ah crap.

    Yes there was time I was really down & all. I kept complaining & cry & cry & cry. But there's this two girl, one who have never met me & the other my BEST BUDDY, all their talks & motivation brought me up again :D I am standing tall now thanks to the duo.

My pretty best friend :) I love her endlessly.

Through this whole breaking down experience I learnt a lot, how to forgive & forget. I never knew Forgiving & Forgetting is just the best remedy. I did able to move on & LOL more than usual. Making new friends losing shittys and ll. But what matter most is I am happy & so are they. 

It's really tough when you'd a bunch of backstabbing friends, but it's really nice to know I found who are my true friends. :) It may be a small group but when I need them they are going to be right there for me.

In fact, I became even closer to my family members :) Things which I have never done. I am getting closer to him too, I guess. :) And all this little things makes me more than happy & most of all, I stop blaming God but start thanking God. :)

I wasn't really a holy girl & all but today I am an ardent believer of God & everyday I thank Him for every moment of my life :) 

To all those heart broken, :) you never should give up :) Yes being strong is tough but if you'd not give a try, you wouldn't know how the future is :) Adios. 

A note for you.

Hye? I wanna tell so much things, but I just don't know where to begin, how to begin & all. As much as you are fed-up of me, I'm fed-up of crying everyday. As much as you're having fun now, I also want to have fun. I know I've done mistakes & lately was so into my problems. I'm sorry. I just couldn't be perfect. I am trying every now and then. It's so clueless. It's so hard to face the fact you've dumped me & do what you did. Sometimes the ignorance you gave hurts more. It's hurts when you say your love faded away. I'm sorry. I didn't try my best to be the best for you. Sometimes, I just don't get it, why I'm not over the blues. I realized that you're no longer mine. There won't be a second chance & that you're gone forever. But the memories, keep hunting. I just couldn't forget every single words you say to me, how we joke around till late nights & the stupid arguments. You changed so did I. I accepted the fact you're the new you. I adapted to it. Sometimes, I hurt you by my words & you hurt me by actions. I'm sorry. I know, I sound stupid, desperate and all, but yeah, I truly love you & that's why I am being so. It's not easy to just sweep in with any other guys. I'm still changing & hoping for miracle. I couldn't care less anymore, because I honestly love you. The worst feeling in the world is when you can’t love anyone else, because your heart still belongs to the one who broke it.  

Will there be another chance? To get things right? Will there still be hope? :C Will there still be love in you? I'll wait.